Green with envy

I thought I won’t feel this way because I never remember being envious before. If I learn that a friend is on the way, I celebrate with them and just wish I, too, would conceive soon. But if my monthly visitor arrives, I’ll console myself that it is not yet the right time. Now I just learned that one of my best buddies in HS is on the way for her second child. I find myself wishing I would be pregnant soon and would be taking those prenatal vitamins that I am asking from a MedRep friend. I can’t help it but I am green with envy and found myself asking when would be the right time for us to have a baby? Only God knows when but I hope it would be soon. I am beyond excited to buy baby stuffs, wear preggy dresses, and experience being a mom for the first time.